League of Denial (full film) | FRONTLINE

I just finished watching this amazing film by Frontline. It is in regard to the huge problem of the National Football Leagues denial to accept the impact that playing American Football has upon its players. This film even goes into finding of Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy, CTE, in a player as young as 18 years old.

I am posting this because, this is not just an American Football issue, it is a worldwide issue, for players of any sports that has head and body contact. But, what is often lost, in the news of sports players and concussions, and CTE, is the fact, that even non-athletes, are also at risk for this disease. 

Yes, I was an athlete for many, many years myself, even playing American Football. I was an avid cyclist for most of my life, but had to stop in my late 40´s, because repetitive head trauma was causing me, to have serious falls, while cycling.

The cause of the falls was uncontrolled epilepsy. So, there are also people like myself, who fall so much, that we too are affected by not only Traumatic Brain Injury, but possibly, Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy, as well. 

I love American Football, love it. Yet, also, the most popular sport in the world, Soccer or also called football or fútbol, there are a great number of players who suffer from brain injury. So, this is not just about the National Football Leagues problem and the players family, it is other athletes,  and other peoples whom, as well, are affected greatly from the debilitating diseases and traumas to the brain.

It is good to be aware of any person suffering any form of a brain disorder and to understand their silent pain and their silent sufferings.

With great love to all,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Where Does My Destiny Lie...

There was a time when I knew where my destiny was...

What my destiny was...

When a young girl...

My destiny was to be a good daughter...

To be a good student...

To learn right from wrong...

As a young woman...

My destiny was to seek my path of the future...

What would I be, what would I become...?

What is it that I will do to better this world...?

When I became a wife...

My destiny was to be a good and faithful wife...

Loving him until the day he died...

When I became a mother...

My destiny was to nurture and to love my sons...

To hold them when frightened, to comfort and guide them...

To teach them right from wrong...

To become good men upon this earth...

Now all of these times have passed...

I am left with myself...

I thought my destiny would be to live in beauty, tranquility in a beautiful part of the world till the end of my days...

This, now, has taken a sad and lonely turn...for now it shall not be...

I sit here now, crying, feeling broken, feeling that I have lost my path...

So now, where does my destiny lie...?

One needs something to live for, a reason to stay on this planet...

Feeling as if you no longer have purpose...

Well, leaves one feeling so empty, so alone...

A vessel afloat and drifting...

So what is my purpose...where, now, does my destiny lie ...

I have no answer to that question...

My heart feels so scattered, feels a float...

And my soul is bleeding...

What am I to do...where am I to go...?

Dreams shattered in an instant and fragments lie everywhere...

No longer a full piece...

Only the shards of what was hoped to be...

Fragility, vulnerability, the unknown...

Where does my destiny lie...?

Until, I know, I shall sit with this sigh...

The sigh of not knowing, of the unknown, of silence and void...

Breathing each breath until...

Revealed unto me...

Where my destiny lies...

With great peace and love to all,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

“One love, one heart, one destiny.” 
― Robert Marley

“Letting go means to come to the realization that some people are a part of your history, but not a part of your destiny.” 

― Steve Maraboli

“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” 
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound with the destinies of others. You must either learn to carry the Universe or be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors.” 
― Andrew Boyd, 

Daily Afflictions: The Agony of Being Connected to Everything in the Universe

“Your soul knows the geography of your destiny. Your soul alone has the map of your future, therefore you can trust this indirect, oblique side of yourself. If you do, it will take you where you need to go, but more important it will teach you a kindness of rhythm in your journey.” 
― John O'Donohue, 

Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom

All quotes courtesy of:

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/tag/destiny

Musical Selection: Queen, "Made in Heaven" (Official Lyric Video)

Queen - Made In Heaven (Official Lyric Video)

Mitch Rossell - A Soldier's Memoir (Official Video)

Another song, I found, to go along with, "The Battle Scars That Hide in the Shadows."