George Michael - Praying For Time (Official Video)

Just as the beginning of the video states, "Listen without prejudice." It is a brilliant song, and George Michael, himself was incredibly brilliant. This song, could mean different things to different people. So, let this song, into your heart and your soul, and see if you can listen, without prejudice and see how it touches you.

We are living in some very difficult times now, so I do hope, you will take this song with some kind of hope, even though, it may not seem so hopeful. Pray for time, pray for love, pray for peace, and pray for healing...for all, especially with this New Year of 2021 coming in very soon.

Do something to make a difference in some way, anyway, even if it is just within yourself. Try not, and freeze with fear, to reach out. Yes, we have the pandemic, but don't shut yourself completely off from the world, and don't shut others out. WE must be brave during these times. Hug someone without fear! I do it all the time. No one has become ill because of it. Yes, we must be cautious, but so cautious that we don't even hug anymore, that people have to sit so far away from one another, and no longer give the hand of peace to our fellow person!?

I was so saddened, when I watched Midnight Mass, on my Mac, on Christmas Eve. A Cathedral, in Chicago, so large, and it looked so empty, from the social distancing. Midnight Mass, was the thing, I looked the most forward to, during Christmas time. Church was always packed and standing room only, we did not live in fear of being near our fellow beings. Yet, flues and viruses, deaths from poverty, pollution, cancers, Aids, all kinds of diseases and accidents happened daily...ALL AROUND THE GLOBE. WE DID NOT LIVE IN FEAR OF ONE ANOTHER, OF A VIRUS.

I know, I am being bold in what I am saying, but I am saying it anyhow. I don't like to see masks on the photos of everyone, take the mask off for the photo, let me see your face and not your mask. Please. Wear it if you must on the streets, everywhere you go, but please let me see your face. It truly makes me sad to see everyone masked, people distancing, people living in such fear of this pandemic. Life is what it is. We live and we die. If I died of this virus, then that is what I die of. If it is due to something else, then, that is what it will be. I am not afraid.

This song is amazing and I hope it touches you somewhere inside. Give it a chance.

With great love and affection in this coming New Year,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam

George Michael - Heal The Pain (Video) (Remastered)

I let some one in, and so deep inside...

He touched a place, in my soul, that made me come back to life...

He was mine and I was his...giving and sharing love...

Now, he is gone...

Walked out the door just about a year ago...

And, I have not seen him since...

It has been, and is still, a painful year...without him...

He kept me so warm on those cold winter nights...

And, free as a breeze on those warm summer days...

Tears, still well up in my eyes, when I have the slightest thought of him...

OH, how he captured, and was the Captain, of my beating heart...

Now, this heart sails with no one at the helm...

It is healing, this heart of mine, but slowly...

Like ice sickles, slowly dripping away, on a chilly day...

Each drop of melted ice, is one less tear, to cry at night...

I miss him, I miss him terribly...

To let someone in once again...it will be hard...

I want love again, but I wish not, for the pain, that can come, with another break, of the heart...

Is there someone out there, that I could let in, and help to heal the pain...?

Only time will tell as my heart still swells...

So, in the meantime, I am the one whom, must make me happy...

For, I am the only one that can...

Yes, I want love again...

So, I shall fill myself up with it, every day that passes...

I shall heal the pain, well, most of it that is...

Then, perhaps, I can let someone else, in again...!

With great love to you all,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Bethlehem Bible College Choir O Little Town of Bethlehem

My hope this Christmas is that this song will truly touch your heart, this Christmas. Yes, feel the joy of Christmas, but also feel the pain of those whom are living in Bethlehem and all of Palestine, who suffer, greatly suffer daily. May they be blessed with freedom soon.

Merry Christmas Palestine,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

EP.824: Ex-Mayor of Bethlehem: Israel Enforcing Christian Exodus From Be...

And one more, from occupied Bethlehem Palestine, by the illegal occupation of the illegal State of Israel.

MERRY CHRISTMAS WORLD FROM PALESTINE...THE BIRTHPLACE OF THE REASON AS TO WHY WE CELEBRATE THIS TIME OF YEAR...

LOVE AND PEACE ALWAYS,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Oh little town of Bethlehem - The real Palestine at Christmas

The birthplace of Jesus, Bethlehem, Palestine, now under illegal Israeli occupation, this is Bethlehem today. 

When singing "Oh Little Town of Bethlehem," this Christmas, not only remember Jesus, but also remember the people of Palestine please...

Peace and Love Always,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

O Little Town of Bethlehem

Merry Christmas from modern day Bethlehem...

Think of Palestine this Christmas.

Love and peace always,

Maria Joan Juarez Beam (Boheme)

Last Christmas - Official Trailer/Last Christmas...This Birthday

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! 

Actually, today is, December 7th, 2020, and it happens, to be my 60th birthday...yes, I know 60!!! WOW!!! How did that happen!? I don't mind the being 60 part, age never really bothered me. It is just that incredibly, I have been on this planet for 60 years. That is a lot of time, a lot of decades, a lot of changes since 1960, and a whole lot of life. Yet, here I am...still going.

I was watching this movie, "Last Christmas," oh, for my birthday and just because I simply love it. I just had my pizza that was delivered...yummy, some luscious Red Lambrusco, imported from Italy, and a lovely piece of chocolate cake that my neighbors brought me. How sweet. 💝

I did have grander plans, then being home, alone for my big day, I mean 60 is a milestone. But, all did not plan out as planned out. Yet, as a poster that I had in my room growing up said, "When Life Gives You Lemons...Make Lemonade." And, that is a philosophy, that I have lived in my lifetime, as well as, the Golden Rule, which is the most important. 

So, I have toasted my birthday, I have toasted my life, for although, there have been many a challenging road upon my journey, all in all, I have had "A Wonderful Life." I am grateful. I have done much, seen much, had children and 2 husbands, always have been blessed to have bread and shelter, and have travelled the world, I have done work, that uplifted my life, in the grandest of ways. So many wonderful memories with family and friends. I have been blessed.

Now, we shall see what life has ahead. I will share with you some pictures of my life. I put many on poster board and they are hanging on my walls, because who ever looks through their photo albums? So, I always have them there. :) These photos are just a fraction of the life that I have lived. I hope you enjoy.

Oh, and I highly suggest that if you are able to watch, "Last Christmas," I promise that it will touch your heart in so, so many ways, literally. It's magic and magnificence will brighten your way and your Christmas.

Now for the pics...Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all and may we truly begin to have a peaceful and prosperous world for all. 

With great love and affection for all,

Maria Joan Hidalgo Juarez Beam (Boheme)

LOVE TO ALL...

 

❝Beautiful Boy❞ - John Lennon ; Sub español

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEAUTIFUL BOY...YOUR MAMA LOVES YOU SO ON THIS EARTH AND YOUR FATHER WATCHES OVER YOU FROM HEAVEN ABOVE...

Luther Vandross - The Impossible Dream (Official Live) An Evening of Son...

I repost this amazingly beautiful song again, sung by Luther Vandross live at the Royal Albert Hall, in London, England.

Watching Luther Vandross singing live, to me, is incredibly powerful. His voice was heavenly itself. He sang, each and every song, that he sang in his life, with the greatest of passion and emotion. He was inspiring and sparkling. A great man, that we lost, at far too young an age. 

Thank you Luther for your gift of song and voice. Your gift of love. Your gift of you...

With great love to all,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Marc Puig feat. Maria Collado - To Start Anew

It is a New Time to Fly

I believe, that there are no, certain words, to fully explain, grief. Grief occurs for different reasons, not only death. Although, the loss of anything, that was love, caring, being needed, having purpose, can plunge ones soul, into a very deep place of grief. 

My life, has radically changed, over the past 10 years, in ways, I never would have imagined. If I had read a book, about my future life, I would have felt, as if it were fiction. Yet, it has turned out to be fact, facts, that have placed me, into a position, of intense grieving, for all of these years. 

It is exhausting. I am fully and utterly exhausted. I no longer, want to live, in this state of perpetual grieving. I want to feel alive and vibrant once again. But, it is not easy. It is going to be, one of the most difficult things, I have had to do in my life, and I have had, to live through many difficult things, but this will be the hardest, to finally let go of the pain and the hurt...that has been my constant companion. 

This process, I have decided to go through, has finally come to me this night. I no longer want my heart, feeling shredded and bleeding. I need to write a new story, and a story, just for me. Not for my children, not for those whom, I loved in my life, not for those whom, have passed before me, not for what I dreamed of, in my older years. No, this story is to be a beginning, for my life. 

Each day will be a new page of the book. I have no plan, for how the ending will turn out to be, I have no plan how each new page will be written. I only know, that I must begin this book and this story. The old version, no longer serves me. It is outdated, and is beginning to gather dust. 

This is my time for healing, true healing. Being stuck, in a state of grief, does not allow one, to move forward, to create anew. The love you had, for those you loved so intensely, including ones children, the life you once loved, your dreams that did not come to be, this love never fades. It remains, it will, just

 no longer, cause the pain, that it has, for far too long. 

So, I pick up a new pen tonight, actually, I prefer pencils, I pick up a new pencil, and I begin to write each word and each line, without knowing, what will be written. And, this is the sheer beauty of it, it will all be new, fresh, and a new path to joy. 

Living in sadness and pain, for so long, became so crippling, that I did not realize, that I had been walking on these crutches, one of sadness, and the other of pain. So, I shall walk, learn to walk without them. It will not be overnight, there still will be pain, while rewriting my story, while learning to walk, without those crutches, that I leaned on for so long. But, it will be a beginning, and this gives me hope, and belief in myself. This is the most important component, the belief in myself, and writing a new story of life, of me, by me, and for me.

This is not a selfish act, in fact, it is quite the opposite. It is the most loving act, that I can do for myself, and for all, that I have been grieving for. It releases me, and it releases them, of that life once lived. As a butterfly, that frees itself, from the cocoon, can now fly and flutter. Be brilliant in color and brilliant in life. Bringing and living joy, with each movement, of its wings anew. 

With the greatest of love and new beginnings,

Maria Joan Hidalgo Juarez Beam (Boheme)

Musical Selection:

Marc Puig feat. Maria Collado - To Start Anew

Annie Lennox & Al Green - Put A Little Love In Your Heart [HQ]

Oh, this song is so AMAZING!!!  It has lifted my heart so much...one cannot help but to smile and be filled with pure smiles and joy in ones heart...so remember to..."PUT A LITTLE LOVE IN YOUR HEART," It is so easy to do and what great reward it can bring to many ...

From my heart to yours,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Regina Spektor - "Bleeding Heart" [Official Music Video]

WE can heal our bleeding hearts and face the world once again...

Luther Vandross The impossible dream with lyrics

Catch Those Falling Stars

  It has been well over a  month  since I have last written...

I am so amazed at how many people have read my writings since I have been recovering...

Thank you...!

It means so much to me, and you, my readers, are finding posts that I made in the past, that I didn't even recall, that I had posted them...

If you had any idea how this makes me feel...in a word, AMAZING!!! 😊💗😊

Well, I was taken aback, when I checked my stats, after being away for so long, that I deterred from the title...

So, now stirring back...

Many of your know, or perhaps do not, that I have what is called, Traumatic Brain Injury, and I also, have what is called retractable epilepsy...

Retractable epilepsy, basically means, that I do not have seizure control, even with the taking of medications...

And, due to this, I fall a lot, and I also, hit my head a lot, as well...just about the time that I am recovering, I seem to fall again...

So, hence, the Traumatic Brain Injury...

My brain, due to the damage from the falls, is atrophying, it is shrinking...

Every single hormone produced in my brain are in haywire, as are my neurons...

I have spent oh, I don't know, the last, ten years of my existence, living with this pattern in my life...

And, with every fall, I lose a bit more of what I was capable of doing...

To get back up, from a fall, gets a bit harder and harder each time...

But even through the darkest of moments, of the healing process, I somehow, find a way, to get back up and just keep going...the very best that I can...

This last fall happened at the beginning of August, 2020, I was in my yard, looking up at the stars...

And, tripped, when I came to the cement part, my patio...It was pretty darn cold, and I hit hard...

Though the mercy of the heavens, my neighbor heard my scream and crying...I could not get myself up...

She literally, climbed over the brick wall, that stands between our yards, incredible!

The remainder of the family come over, and they checked me over, and knew that I needed an ambulance...

I really, really, despise going to the hospital, for I have had to do so, far too many times over these years...

I left it in their hands...I had no other choice...

While waiting for the ambulance, I could see the sky...

I could see a massive amount of stars...I could reach them...I could touch them...

I was going into a shock, and also, into, what is called, status epilepticcus...

But I kept my eyes on the stars...those amazing and brilliant stars, that shine every night, in the magnificent sky...

I was unconscious in the ambulance, but it is amazing, what one can feel in a state of unconsciousness...

You know what is happening, but you cannot speak, you cannot respond, even though inside, you are calling out...

You can feel everything that is happening...It is a surreal experience...

I was coming pretty close to death in that ambulance...

But the woman attending me, was incredible, and she kept me alive until I got to the hospital...

After that, I don't remember very much, except that, there must have been, a lot of nurses and doctors, around me, desperately attempting, to get a needle in my veins...

I have very delicate veins, and it is very hard, to encounter a vein, that will allow the needle to penetrate...

This is due, to my hundreds of visits, to emergency rooms and hospital stays, over these ten plus years...

Status epilepticcus is a life threatening condition...this is why the staff was all over me trying to get that needle in...to give me the medication that I needed to keep me alive...

They did...Bravo! They did it...!!!

It was if the Covid didn't even exist...their goal was to save my life...

The time, that I was in this state of animation, I kept seeing the stars...

I truly thought, that I would be, joining them soon...

My star, I felt, was waiting for me...

"From the stars we came and to the stars we must return..." Jack Campbell-Relentless 

Never miss an opportunity to catch a falling star...for that star could be a part of yourself...

It could be a part of someone you love...

Passed away or still living...

Never miss that opportunity to catch those falling stars that brighten up your life...

The stars are life...

The stars are our dreams...

The stars are who we are...

So catch that falling star and put it into your pocket...

Take it out whenever you need hope...

Whenever you have fallen and must get back up...

Whenever you feel lost and alone, hopeless...

Take out that star that you caught...

And feel the light that it brings to you...

Allow this light to reach deep into your heart...into your soul...

This light will do magical things...

It could even save your life one day...as it did mine...

I kept those stars in my pocket...the pocket of my mind...

I am alive and I am vibrant...

The light of the stars, are what keep me, getting back up, and to keep moving on...no matter how slowly...

No matter how difficult the journey...

You can get back up and shine as brightly as the stars above...

 

With great love and affection to all...

Shine always like the stars...

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Musical Selections: The Impossible Dream

The original by Andy Williams, which put me into tears every time I hear it. His voice was incredible.

Also, a version by Luther Vandross. It is stunningly beautiful. I didn't know he had sung this song and he does so ever so powerfully. 

Enjoy them and remember them when ever you need that star...you can reach it...

This writing is dedicated to my dear friend Karla, who was at my side in the hospital and who is always there for me. Thank you mi Karlita preciosa!