Annie Lennox & Al Green - Put A Little Love In Your Heart [HQ]

Oh, this song is so AMAZING!!!  It has lifted my heart so much...one cannot help but to smile and be filled with pure smiles and joy in ones heart...so remember to..."PUT A LITTLE LOVE IN YOUR HEART," It is so easy to do and what great reward it can bring to many ...

From my heart to yours,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Regina Spektor - "Bleeding Heart" [Official Music Video]

WE can heal our bleeding hearts and face the world once again...

Luther Vandross The impossible dream with lyrics

Catch Those Falling Stars

  It has been well over a  month  since I have last written...

I am so amazed at how many people have read my writings since I have been recovering...

Thank you...!

It means so much to me, and you, my readers, are finding posts that I made in the past, that I didn't even recall, that I had posted them...

If you had any idea how this makes me feel...in a word, AMAZING!!! 😊💗😊

Well, I was taken aback, when I checked my stats, after being away for so long, that I deterred from the title...

So, now stirring back...

Many of your know, or perhaps do not, that I have what is called, Traumatic Brain Injury, and I also, have what is called retractable epilepsy...

Retractable epilepsy, basically means, that I do not have seizure control, even with the taking of medications...

And, due to this, I fall a lot, and I also, hit my head a lot, as well...just about the time that I am recovering, I seem to fall again...

So, hence, the Traumatic Brain Injury...

My brain, due to the damage from the falls, is atrophying, it is shrinking...

Every single hormone produced in my brain are in haywire, as are my neurons...

I have spent oh, I don't know, the last, ten years of my existence, living with this pattern in my life...

And, with every fall, I lose a bit more of what I was capable of doing...

To get back up, from a fall, gets a bit harder and harder each time...

But even through the darkest of moments, of the healing process, I somehow, find a way, to get back up and just keep going...the very best that I can...

This last fall happened at the beginning of August, 2020, I was in my yard, looking up at the stars...

And, tripped, when I came to the cement part, my patio...It was pretty darn cold, and I hit hard...

Though the mercy of the heavens, my neighbor heard my scream and crying...I could not get myself up...

She literally, climbed over the brick wall, that stands between our yards, incredible!

The remainder of the family come over, and they checked me over, and knew that I needed an ambulance...

I really, really, despise going to the hospital, for I have had to do so, far too many times over these years...

I left it in their hands...I had no other choice...

While waiting for the ambulance, I could see the sky...

I could see a massive amount of stars...I could reach them...I could touch them...

I was going into a shock, and also, into, what is called, status epilepticcus...

But I kept my eyes on the stars...those amazing and brilliant stars, that shine every night, in the magnificent sky...

I was unconscious in the ambulance, but it is amazing, what one can feel in a state of unconsciousness...

You know what is happening, but you cannot speak, you cannot respond, even though inside, you are calling out...

You can feel everything that is happening...It is a surreal experience...

I was coming pretty close to death in that ambulance...

But the woman attending me, was incredible, and she kept me alive until I got to the hospital...

After that, I don't remember very much, except that, there must have been, a lot of nurses and doctors, around me, desperately attempting, to get a needle in my veins...

I have very delicate veins, and it is very hard, to encounter a vein, that will allow the needle to penetrate...

This is due, to my hundreds of visits, to emergency rooms and hospital stays, over these ten plus years...

Status epilepticcus is a life threatening condition...this is why the staff was all over me trying to get that needle in...to give me the medication that I needed to keep me alive...

They did...Bravo! They did it...!!!

It was if the Covid didn't even exist...their goal was to save my life...

The time, that I was in this state of animation, I kept seeing the stars...

I truly thought, that I would be, joining them soon...

My star, I felt, was waiting for me...

"From the stars we came and to the stars we must return..." Jack Campbell-Relentless 

Never miss an opportunity to catch a falling star...for that star could be a part of yourself...

It could be a part of someone you love...

Passed away or still living...

Never miss that opportunity to catch those falling stars that brighten up your life...

The stars are life...

The stars are our dreams...

The stars are who we are...

So catch that falling star and put it into your pocket...

Take it out whenever you need hope...

Whenever you have fallen and must get back up...

Whenever you feel lost and alone, hopeless...

Take out that star that you caught...

And feel the light that it brings to you...

Allow this light to reach deep into your heart...into your soul...

This light will do magical things...

It could even save your life one day...as it did mine...

I kept those stars in my pocket...the pocket of my mind...

I am alive and I am vibrant...

The light of the stars, are what keep me, getting back up, and to keep moving on...no matter how slowly...

No matter how difficult the journey...

You can get back up and shine as brightly as the stars above...

 

With great love and affection to all...

Shine always like the stars...

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)

Musical Selections: The Impossible Dream

The original by Andy Williams, which put me into tears every time I hear it. His voice was incredible.

Also, a version by Luther Vandross. It is stunningly beautiful. I didn't know he had sung this song and he does so ever so powerfully. 

Enjoy them and remember them when ever you need that star...you can reach it...

This writing is dedicated to my dear friend Karla, who was at my side in the hospital and who is always there for me. Thank you mi Karlita preciosa!

Impossible Dream Andy Williams lyrics

MAMA - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE (Lyric Video)

This song is certainly not for the faint hearted and to listen to this as a mother, hits me hard, hits me hard indeed. But, it expresses much, of what our soldiers, go through and the suffering, that they know that their mama´s go through as well.

My son, did not tell me all, that he had done, and that he had experienced in his tour of duty, but he did say, Mama, I did some really bad things, and I saw some really bad things"..his way of asking me his forgiveness...

He is haunted, yes, he is haunted. I feel his haunting and his need for redemption, especially from me, but is far to afraid to ask. But, he has it and I hope that he knows it. 

So, with tears flowing, from my soul and down my face, son, I love you and I always will, and you have my love and forgiveness for eternity.

Thank you for allowing me to share,

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Beam)

To Be A Military Mother...Not for the Faint Hearted

It is said, that "living alone is not for the faint hearted," 

Nor, to be a military mother of two sons, and I am both...a military mother and I live alone...

Faint hearted, I have never been, a sensitive soul yes, but that makes one strong...

Oh, I cry, yes, indeed, for I have not seen my sons for over 9 years and very little contact with them since they both joined and left...

Yet, shedding tears, is what keeps me going, keeps me from being faint hearted...

I know one day I will see them again, it is the not knowing when, that is trialsome, that is a heavy burden to carry within your heart...

We, as a country, send our young men and woman  all around the globe to fight, and to fight what, I say...to fight what!?

It is Jesus and others before him and after, that said, "love your enemy," but do we truly have enemies enough to create war and destruction...

Or, do we create the enemies, so that we may have war and destruction...our enemies are an illusion, a delusion that destroys the souls of many...

Yet, we keep creating "our enemies," we keep sending our young ones off and leaving mothers and wives behind...

No, being a military mother is not for the faint hearted...

And, I will be damned, if I was not in the streets, fighting against, these wars, that are not wars at all, they are weapons of greed and the stealing of our innocents...

So while we are out there fighting to save the lives of innocent black lives...let us also begin to fight for the lives of the innocents of so many colors...

The innocents of all these needless wars...when will EVERYONE wake up and do something about it and put and end to it all...

All this pointless madness, all the pointless suffering, all the pointless tears, all the pointless death...

My heart is not faint, but my heart is broken, and has been broken for over 10 years of missing the young men, who now are men, that I have not seen, nor have spoken with for far too long...

So hear the pleading of a mother who has to do her best to remain strong and not to be faint hearted...

Not only the mother´s of military sons and daughters, but also for those whom are under our military attack, oh and their suffering is far worse than mine, and I feel for them...I suffer with them...

And, may you, also begin to suffer with them, so you may realize that by allowing war to continue, your soul is paying a very high price...

Maria Joan Juarez Hidalgo Beam (Boheme)